The battle of positivity…🌸

You blink, life changes. *sighs*

I’m literally at a point where I’m wondering if I’m coming or going. The only thing that makes me happy, is my beautiful boy. His smile literally lights up the room & he makes my heart so warm. I could never give up or stop pushing because he motivates me, effortlessly.

One day, I feel like I have everything together & I’m on my way to great things and other days I wake up & have to force myself to get out of the house. Mental battles are harder than physical ones & the reality is, it’s just part of life. At some point you’ll wonder where you took a wrong turn but it’s about how you get back on track. A lot of people take for granted that as I am quite strong minded with a sharp tongue that I don’t hurt. WRONG. People need to remember, I am human. I am a woman. I have feelings.

First things first, remove “them”. And when I say them, I’m referring to those who offer nothing but negativity or darkness. I’ll be honest, I can be real petty & my savage side be on fleek but nowadays if I can’t laugh at it, I don’t take it in. There’s people who have tried to trash my character & attack my womanhood and the reality, because I’m strong enough, I haven’t allowed their toxic thoughts to affect me. But I think it’s important to understand how our words can damage another person and their mental health. I can hold my hands up and say my mouth is wreckless at times (to say the least), but during my pregnancy & since having my young king, I realised just how much my words can hurt others. We never know how much of it they take in, how strong they are or aren’t, where they are in life ect. So sometimes I try to think twice about what I say. Honestly, the things I’ve heard people who don’t even know me on a personal level say has been harsh but those who know me I don’t need to explain! 


Another thing I started doing was explaining myself less & less. I explain to who & when is necessary. It’s made me a lot happier & allowed myself to live in peace without anyones judgement or opinion overshadowing me. I also learnt to stop explaining things that were unimportant to irrelevant people. For example, some people want to know who I’m seeing πŸ˜‚ these times its non of their business 🌚 We’re in a world where people are happy on instagram but battling depression in real life. Don’t buy into the hype. Don’t try to create the “perfect” image. Some pretend they have a perfect partner, or perfect job, or perfect life & when the smallest thing happens it pushes them over the edge. 


I’ve had to appreciate myself when no one else did. It’s ok to look at your own progress & pat yourself on your back. Last year I was wasting my energy on a relationship that had ran its course. Last year I wanted to fight nonstop. Last year I thought I had so much to prove. Last year has gone. This year, I am calm, laughing, smiling & enjoying. As a result, I am glowing! 


You don’t simply forget about everything you’ve been through, you just learn how to cope with it. Whatever it is, you can get through it! I promise you. Different scenarios will have different routes to happiness but you’ll get there. Don’t be afraid to ask for help/support. 


Don’t stress! Youre where you need to be. You will become who you’re meant to be! You’ll meet who you need to meet! You’ll go where you need to go! Just keep being you! 


So recently I started a whatsapp group chat with some other mothers from my insta page. Although we have diffferent views & don’t agree on everything, it’s nice to connect with other people who can relate to each other & not tear each other down. 


Keep trying to be a better version of yourself, the answers will come with time. 


– A growing Nae 🌸

My body & I…🌸

Over the last few weeks I’ve written about the changes with my young king & his routine but I thought it was time to be selfish & talk about me 😊



So my body has obviously gone through changes during my pregnancy & after but tbh I love myself more than pre pregnancy. As a result of being physically sick during my pregnancy I lost a lot of weight ! Honestly though I’m proud & glad I haven’t put it back on…..yetπŸ™Š Breastfeeding definitely helped to snap my uterus down & loving it! 

Since having my beautiful boy I’ve had so much more energy & have been more motivated to get back in shape. I don’t eat regularly but I do eat a lot more healthy πŸ’ͺ🏾

I had a 2 degree tear following my labour which honestly wasn’t that bad. I didn’t feel the stitches & once I was home 3 days later I nearly forgot I had them. Within 10 days a majority of the stitches had dissolved & I was feeling great! 

The first 2 weeks I complained about a shooting pain in the sole & outside of my feet & my midwife explained the nervous system was connected to the uterus & as I shrunk the pressure was causing the pain. My stomach went back to its previous state within 9 days. 

At 4 weeks I went to my GP for my check up & they said I had healed up & could resume normal activity !! I was so happy & started my home workout routines. I did 10 min abdominal excersies when I got up & before bed. I also put lil man in his car seat & uses it as reps for my arms. I also started a 30 say squat challenge & do at least 1 hour walks everyday! I am soon to start the #100daysoffitness before I go on holiday! I wish I could go to the gym but I live far from any friends/family & there’s no one close to have my lil man regularly. I am currently waiting for a personally designed plan from @theketobelle to eat & train well from home.

I’ve realised that since giving birth, my bum has lifted my waist is smaller. My legs are extremely toned & my boobs haven’t changed much! I’ve gone down a back size & up a cup size πŸ’ƒπŸΎI stopped breastfeeding at 12 weeks & have put my nipple piercings back in. 

Having sex after birth seemed mentally impossible but thankfully it was a great experience. As stupid as it sounds, sex after giving birth is like being a virgin again. I remember nearly sweating, being nervous & shy and acting like a lil school girl againπŸ˜‚  but honestly, sex wasn’t painful to start again & I can honestly say I missed it πŸ˜‚ i look forward to sex more than my boyfriend does πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

My hair has grown beautifully during pregnancy & some warned it may break after birth but it’s still healthy & keeps getting better ! 

I’ve always had good skin but since giving birth, I’ve had to take care of it better as it is extremely sensitive right now & reacts to everything πŸ™„ daily cleansing & toning are key for my new glow πŸ’«

I’ve realised I can’t hold my wee as long as before but as I am still doing my pelvic floor exercises it seems to be getting better. 

I also think my mental & emotional changes help with my healthier life. Being stress & drama free is key to my new positive life & my son &  boyfriend add to it. They both motivate me to be a better version of myself & that’s what intent to do πŸ’ͺ🏾πŸ’ͺ🏾 

With my lil mans christening coming up & then our holiday, my motivation is πŸ’― 

Bring on the glow up !!πŸ’«


– Confident Muva 🌸

What a week…🌸

Well the past week has been beautiful & peaceful…



So my handsome young king had his immunisations!! I was by far more of a nervous wreck than him! The doctor done a quick check, his legs, stomach, back and reflexes and I wheeled him through to the nurse. I definitely felt like Judas, walking him into what I knew would hurt 😭I bought him Calpol as a precaution as I read up about one of the side effect being a fever. I went to boots & looked through the baby medicine. Calpol was the only brand that did 2months+! All the others (including boots own brand) started from 3months+ which I found so stupid since their shots are given at 8 weeks πŸ™„
Anyway, I sat him down on my knee & she gave him the first shot. He literally jumped & instantly screamed which was bittersweet. It was horrible that my baby was hurt & obviously shocked but it meant he was too upset & worked up to feel the next 2. By the time she put the plasters on my lil man was smiling & breaking her heart. Myself, not so good. She had to get me tissues 😭😭 Luckily, I live across the road from my GP so I was able to go get home within 4 mins, give him calpol & give him cuddles. He wasn’t really upset (actually I was) & went straight to sleep for his normal afternoon nap. The nurse had warned that the hepatitis B shot normally causes the fever so ensured he was in light clothing & no heavy blanket. He was ok up until when he woke up next in the night, where he was crying more than usual and very fussy. Thankfully, his temperature stayed at its normal range and I even took him swimming for the first time 2 days later. 

He was uncertain about the water at first but soon got into it and had everyone at the pool dying to take him home! 

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My lil prince is now in size 1 pampers and is gaining weight at a healthy rate. He’s still quite small to everyone else but is a lot bigger than a few weeks ago! He’s vision has him looking at people and objects more focused and is laughing in response to people talking to him. He is so long now and I’ve decided to take him out his Moses basket and he will start sleeping in his cot. My partner & I put the cot up this week (I just handed him screws πŸ˜‚) so I’m excited to put him in! He wiggles and shuffles so much & is so determined to try and crawl. He is also holding his bottle himself & burps so easily! He is very alert & is always lifting his head up or trying to sit himself  up !


I have used Water Wipes since he was born and absolutely love them & have found them to be great on his skin. I even use them to wipe his milk tongue! But I have found these Huggies Newborn Wipes the perfect alternative ! They are cost effective and possess the same properties ! I absolutely love them and would recommend them to any mummy! 

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Honestly, time is flying by and my young king is just growing sooooooo fast! I love him more & more everyday which seems impossible but honestly I’ve never experienced love like this! β™₯️β™₯️β™₯️

– A Love Filled Muva πŸ”₯


It’s been a while…🌸

It’s been a few weeks since I last wrote anything so it’s time to update you on the next chapter…!

My young king is currently 9 weeks old and he is the most beautiful person I have ever laid eyes on 😩😍 he is such a character already and makes me smile every day without fail! When I last posted, I was working on his weight & eating, which has picked up tremendously! πŸ’ͺ🏾 He currently weighs 8oz11 which is such a leap from his birth weight. πŸ‘πŸΎ 


I’ve realised just how demanding breastfeeding is and over the  past few weeks I have reduced the breast. With my son growing his demand has grown so much that my boobs can’t keep up 🀣 he gets really upset and finds it frustrating to latch on & it becomes a monumental task for the both of us. I now breastfeed for his first feed in the am & last feed at night & bottle feed during the day. As he was struggling with feeding when he was younger & had constipation the first week or so, he started to drink Aptamil Comfort which is a special formula for colic & constipation. I now mix it with the normal Aptamil First Milk). He currently has changed to a medium flow teet as he is soooo greedy πŸ˜‚Sometimes drinking these special formulas alone can cause baby to be lazy with their bowel movements when weaned off. I’ll be very honest to say, when he poos at times the explosion is real 😩but I rather out than in πŸ˜‚ he doesn’t open his bowels everyday, his routine is every 2-3 days. If he is straining a lil (you’ll see the concentration on his face) then I let him take 3-4 sips of warm water (the Midwife’s will tell you not to put its fine as long as it’s a small amount) and he has instant relief within 10 minutes (be prepared for that bath life). 




I give him a bath at this point every other day & he lovvvvveeessssss it! I only use pure olive/coconut oil in his hair & I absolutely adore the Aveeno Baby range. I’ve also used Simple Baby All-in-1 wash which which I also like on his skin. He is still in size micro in nappies & goes through about 6 on average a day. 

My lil man is not a chubby boy but is sooooooo long! He’s too long for Newborn Sleepsuits but too small for 0-3 months so he’s currently got a mixed wardrobe πŸ˜‚ I love putting him in the little outfits on the day & sleepsuits at night. He still wears micro size nappies but I’m hoping to put him in size 1s next week! 


My lil man has his full head of hair & it’s getting longer & thicker Week by week ! I only use organic olive or coconut oil & I think the key is keeping their hair hydrated. 


Makhairo is still sleeping in his Moses basket however I am putting up his cot this week as he is sooooooo long! He finds it easier to fall asleep on his front & shuffles a lot when he’s fighting the sleep. As a result he can travel from one end of the basket to the other πŸ™ƒ he goes to sleep anytime between 23.30-1.30 & isn’t up until 8.30. β™₯οΈπŸ™πŸΎ I still love watching him sleep and can’t get over the fact he’s mine! Nowadays he fights his sleep & can become fussy but he normally nods off if I place him on his front. (The NHS advise you to not let them sleep on their front as they can be sick & inhale it & choke to death.) I let him sleep on his front in the day when I can keep an eye. At night I wait for him to fall asleep then turn him on his side. He’s such a happy & content baby & makes my heart melt daily! He is starting to gain focus in his sight & is following  movements. Although he smiled before, it was involuntary whereas now he smiles as a result of me playing & talking with him. 


Makhs is having his injections and I must say, I’m so nervous! I’ve bought Calpol (2months+) as a precaution. I’m hoping that all goes well but I was nervous about the amount he’s having (3 injections & 1 oral liquid). I didn’t know a lot about them & was directed to The Green Book. It’s the government website with all information about immunisations. I’ll definitely include his reactions in the next update! 

https://www.gov.uk/government/collections/immunisation-against-infectious-disease-the-green-book 

As for me, I suffered from a 2nd degree tear in labour (I didn’t realise) & received stitches which completely dissolved with 10/11 days. To be honest, I forgot I even had them & had no limitations. At 4 weeks postpartum I was checked & given the green light to return to normal physical activity (gym,sex ect). Since then I have been eating healthier and feeling full of energy (I think your child naturally pumps you up). I find my appetite a lil rubbish & getting used to a new routine it’s easy a lot of days to remember to eat πŸ™ˆ I also recognise I am getting a lot more sleep than other Mummy’s so I use it o my advantage. I’ve also got this constant urge to tidy up πŸ˜‚. With breastfeeding I realised drinking plenty is key. Any days I haven’t drank enough normally causes me to suffer from really intense headaches & I don’t produce enough.  

All in all, I couldn’t ask for a better baby! Everywhere I go I’m reminded how blessed I am by the constant compliments & smiles. 

-Extremely Blessed & Humbled Muva Nae🌸

1 Month Update…🌸

My mornings will never be the same…They’ll always be better ! β™₯️

It has been exactly 4 weeks since the world was blessed with my young king & it’s honestly gone by soooooo fast! I  feel sooooooo old as my baby boy is growing so fast right before my eyes. He is changing so much & developing into himself well. He is still very small but he has the biggest character to make up for it…

I am currently mixed feeding my lil man, he takes the breast for anything between 40-80 mins & I top him up with formula. He has now matured enough to drink powdered milk so he is currently drinking Aptamil Comfort Formula which is specific formula for constipation & colic. Even though my beautiful son doesn’t suffer from either it can be used as a preventive measure. It seems to agree with him & fill him up so I’ll continue to use it.

Ive realised my son is a fussy eater πŸ˜‚ he likes breast milk from the breast, he likes formula in the bottle, however he hates breast milk in the bottle πŸ˜’ so I haven’t been expressing the past 10days or so. My boobs haven’t swelled or filled up & as I breastfeeding a majority of the time my pump has started to collect dust lol. 


My lil man HATED his first bath, he literally looked at me as if I was Satan 😩 I realised he was trying to grab on a lot & that he must have felt insecure so o decided the next time around to add more water & it worked !! Ever since he absolutely looovvvesssss his baths! What I love is that I can weigh him before I bathe him thanks to my built in scales πŸ’ͺπŸΎπŸ™ŒπŸΎ he loves to kick & his favourite part is when I do his hair 😍 I can’t wait till I take him swimming….πŸ’™


 One thing I’m finding amazing about my young king is how much he sleeps πŸ˜‚ at night I put him down around 12.30am & he doesn’t wake up till around 6.30am. It’s an absolute godsend ! πŸ™ŒπŸΎ I was waking him up 3.30ish to feed as I was nervous I was starving him but then I realised as a premature baby he needs the rest to grow, if he’s that hungry, he’ll wake up! I don’t feel so guilty now & I let him sleep. Another thing is he sleeps through anything! Loud music, mummy singing in the shower, him doing a number 1/2, loud family ( trust me I come from a home of loud mouths πŸ˜‚), the hoover, ANYTHING ! The past week I’ve realised he’s been awake longer in the days & is engaging so much more than he did. I honestly can say I’ve been blessed with a happy & content bubba. I can leave him lying down on the bed & get on with so much and he’ll just stare. I’ve also realised in the past week that he actually tries to fight his sleep a lot more! 


We recently went on a family days out in Bluewater Shopping Centre & I was so impressed with their baby facilities! They had a baby feeding room, baby changing room & family bathroom. The baby feeding room was where I went to pop lil man on the breast and it was a pleasuraable experience. There were massive comfy chairs for Mummy’s, bottle warmers, microwaves, cubicles and a TV area (some sort of kids film was on) and it was sooooooo clean! 


The changing room has about 10 changing stations each with their own bin, sink & tap. Again, it was squeaky clean. The touch automatic doors made it easy to access & exit with the pushchair. I wish all baby facilities were like that. 

Lil man is reocognising voices & sounds and growing everyday. Although he’s growing he is still a small baby currently weighing only 5lbs10oz & wears new baby clothes but he is has a strong grip & tries to sit up & crawl. He has recently been introduced who is now his best friend (God help meπŸ˜‚) & is learning how to pull it out his mouth (alrhough he hasn’t mastered getting back in). I can’t express how fast time goes by & I can’t wait to see what great things my son will achieve but please slow down lil man! I will definitely treasure all the little moments…πŸ’™

– A proud Muva Nae 🌸

Sleeping With Lil Man…🌸

 So my young king is 23 Days Old… Nearly a month old 😩😩 where has the time gone ⁉️​

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My boy has learnt so much in such a short space of time & is changing everyday ! He is such a peaceful & delightful little boy it makes my job as mummy soooooo easy. He hardly cries & feeds so well. With his head full of hair & eyes full of sparkle, I literally fall in love with him more & more ! 

I remember throughout my pregnancy people saying “you have a night baby” or “he’s gonna give you hell at night” because my son always seemed to be up between 12-6am 😩 but he’s actually not a night owl πŸ™πŸΎ

My normal day routine…..

6-7am- Feed (Breast) & Clean/Change & Sleep

10.30- Wake Up 
11am- Feed (Breast & Bottle) & Express
11.30- Change 

2pm- Feed (Breast & Bottle) 

2.30pm- Change

3pm- Sleep

6pm- Wake Up

6.30pm- Feed (Breast & Bottle)

6.45pm- Change

7pm- Sleep
9.30-10pm Wake Up

10.30pm- Feed (Bottle) & Express

11pm- Change & Clean

11.30pm-12am- Feed (Breast) & Express

12am- Sleep 

5.30-6am- wake up

I’m so appreciative that my young king has such a settled routine & we’re both in sync. He literally is such a sweetheart & makes my life so simple. This lil boy LOVES his sleep, so much so, that a majority of the time I wake him to be fed or changed. He will literally sleep non stop! The only thing that’ll wake him is a cold wet wipe to the bum! 😭 but I’m happy for him to as much as he likes because it won’t last forever πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚ 


I cannot stress enough just how key breastfeeding has been for me! It’s such a bond & it is so important to keep it up! If you do bottle feed a big piece of advice would be to talk to your bubba & make as much eye contact as possible. It also encourages the sleep because they seem to get the ‘Itis’ easy πŸ˜‚

My lil man currently sleeps in his Moses basket but after his 6am feed he normally sleeps in the bed with me β™₯️ A word of advice would be try to let them sleep on their own if you can because they slowly get accustomed to sleeping with you. My lil man has recently been introduced to the dummy (his new bestie) & it helps settle him to sleep. I realised just like us, he sleeps better after a wipe down/bath & he normally falls asleep in his drunken state on the breast πŸ˜‚ He doesn’t cry much & definitely doesn’t fight his sleep, when he’s tired he goes, no debating πŸ˜‚ he also sleeps pretty well in his pram, car seat & just generally anywhere comfortable enough. 

All in all, my lil man is a good sleeper & gives me no cause for concern 😊


– A Well Rested Muva Nae 🌸

Feeding The Young King…🌸

I’m absolutely in love with our son !! He is such a beautiful & peaceful baby & I have to give thanks for making the start to the journey of motherhood so easy β™₯️

So I had my lil man at 11.44pm & he was trying to latch on straight away ! He sniffed & sucked his fingers & lifted his head to find my nipple & as simple as it sounds, it’s so interesting to watch. I would recommend any mummy to do skin to skin if they are able, it is a mind blowing indescribable bonding moment! 



That first night I spent at least half the night trying to get him to latch & drink & believed something was wrong with me 😭 The yellowish thick substance that I produced, colostrum, was coming out at such a small & slow rate I was convinced he was starving. The reality is in the first day or 2 they don’t need very much! 

*This is only a guide*


So I was panicking for no reason basically! The midwives assured me he wasn’t starving however as a premature baby he needed to maintain a steady weight gain so he was introduced to infant first milk as a top up until my milk came in properly. (formula milk ready made milk, not powder). Day 2-3 were roughly the same and I remember feeling so discouraged and concerned. The midwives had a really blasΓ© attitude which made me more nervous. But my son was a happy and content lil man so I knew he was ok πŸ™πŸΎπŸ’™  

I did keep raising the concerns & 2 midwives did help, showing me different techniques & positions that did help. Due to short staffing ( the NHS has plenty of it) although they wanted to help they struggled to find the time but if youre concerned please do ask & let it be known you won’t be going home without the proper support in regards to beeastfeeding.



Upon going home, he was latching on but at times found it difficult to suck & it left him frustrated and me exhausted so he was mixed fed. They explained as an early baby, he hadn’t had a chance to develop the sucking technique for the breast (apparently they develop this skill week 38-40) so he was tryin to learn something before his time. 


The day after coming home my midwife visited me & I complained of a sore swelling in my right armpit. She confirmed I had a trapped milk duct and I had to massage it in the shower & use a hot rag in a downwards motion to encourage the milk to run towards the breast. It was painful (6/10) & uncomfortable but after following this advice it went down after 3 days. At this point my full milk had come through and I expressed for the first time at day 5. 


* First picture is day 5, second picture is day 7* 

So as you can see, I pumped 30mls the first time & 10mls the next. Our bodies are amazing ladies & our breasts work off of demand so keep popping your bubba on, it’ll encourage milk production. I realised pumping with lil man near by also helped aswell as having a shower before hand. A lot of ladies give up because they don’t see results straight away but remember, just like pregnancy & labour, we all have different experiences. Some people produce 6oz in a single sessions, some produce 1oz. No matter what just keep going! It sometimes can take 2-3 weeks and even a month the midwife said to produce the right amount. Latch baby on as much as possible & try to feed on demand. I did that after day 10 & felt so much better & relaxed. 


Another handy tool that helped with that transition was my nipple shield. This is an absolute godsend. You basically place he shield over your nipple and latch baby on and they are able to suck & maintain latching on. For premature babies like my son it means they find it easier to drink & also relieves pressure on your nipple. Since introducing this I’ve put the formula away & had him completely on the breast! Honestly, I can’t praise these enough! 


*Guideline*

Another question I didn’t get the answer for until day 8, was, how do I know if my son was full? Babies should leave a small amount of milk in the bottle when they’re full. For example,  if you’ve given baby 60mls & they’ve left 50mls then they full. If they drink the whole 60mlms they’re full. On the breast, baby will let go or push the nipple out of their mouth & become uninterested. 

Please remember with bottle feeds to burp bubba (although they sometimes take forever or don’t burp) as trapped gas can be painful to watch. Although I haven’t experienced it with lil man (And I don’t want to) I have seen it in other babies. 😭 My lil man farts so much I don’t think he’ll experience it πŸ˜‚ 

One thing with formula milk is it causes constipation & breast milk acts in the opposite as a laxative so if you mixed feed try and work out a balance. 
You will always know you’re baby better than anyone and if you’re concerned about ANYTHING contact your midwives or maternity triage. Honestly, don’t wait or let google fix your life πŸ™πŸΎ


-A  Content & Proud Muva Nae 🌸